I Hear You: You’ll Never Know Dear by Hallie Ephron

  I am a confessed audiobook addict ever since many years ago when I decided to listen to a book on tape while wrapping Christmas gifts. Much as I had wanted to love Maeve Binchy’s books after friends had raved about them, I had been unable to get into them. But when I heard Tara Road read with brogue, I fell in love with Binchy’s story telling and went on to listen to every one of her books. I can still hear the words from Pat Conroy’s Prince of Tides read by Frank Muller, “Do it again, Mama.” Muller’s narration is celebrated by Conroy in a comment on Audible where he says about Muller, “He gave me, Pat Conroy, the author, a work of art, and I’ve been grateful ever since.”I’ve been hooked on audiobooks ever since. I used to listen while I was driving home from teaching in the evening and would be so involved in the book I was listening to, my husband would come out to the car to tell me to come in. Now that I can sync audiobooks with written books, I’m in heaven and spend less time in the driveway.            This week I am listening to Hallie Ephron’s latest suspense novel, You’ll Never Know Dear, which is narrated by Amy McFadden. Here’s a description of the plot from Amazon: Seven-year-old Lissie Woodham and her four-year-old sister Janey were playing with their porcelain dolls in the front yard when an adorable puppy scampered by. Eager to pet the pretty dog, Lissie chased after the pup as it ran down the street. When she returned to the yard, Janey’s precious doll was gone . . . and so was Janey. Forty years after Janey went missing, Lis—now a mother with a college-age daughter of her own—still blames herself for what happened. Every year on the anniversary of her sister’s disappearance, their mother, Miss Sorrel, places a classified ad in the local paper with a picture of the toy Janey had with her that day—a one-of-a-kind porcelain doll—offering a generous cash reward for its return. For years, there’s been no response. But this year, the doll came home.            Already an Audiofile Earphones Winner, the book grabbed me right away. (Their review called it a “must-listen.” https://www.audiofilemagazine.com/reviews/read/128893/) Unlike in many mysteries where there is predictably a dead body on the first page, Ephron seduces you with suspense, luring you with ordinary events that you know won’t last because something terrible has happened and something even worse is on it’s way. McFadden’s narration conveys a sense of foreboding without overdramatizing. Ephron and McFadden are a powerful duo, complimenting one another, unlike some books where it sounds like the narrator is competing with the author.           I wondered what Hallie thought about listening to someone else read her novel of suspense. “It’s scary listening to someone else read your book because, of course, it’s never the same as the voice you heard in your head when you were writing it. Our narrator, Amy McFadden, did a superb job. Her voice is clear as a bell, and she captured the characters perfectly including their southern accents and edge. I was thrilled.”She should be. The book is terrific with a solid plot and intriguing characters in its own right. Add to it the power of narration and you can’t miss. For me, You’ll Never Know Dear will fill hours while I am driving, walking, doing dishes and laundry, all the while in another world. Here’s a link to an excerpt (the first 5 minutes) from the audio book… https://soundcloud.com/harperaudio_us/youll-never-know-dear-by-hallie-ephron?in=harperaudio_us/sets/williammorrowbooks, if you’d like to join me.  

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La Valise Volee (The Stolen Suitcase)

   “Traveling – it leaves you speechless, then turns you into a storyteller.” – Ibn Battuta When people ask me where do I get my ideas, one of my top answers is by traveling. Perhaps it’s my overactive imagination, but I see stories everywhere I go.          For instance, during a trip to Provence recently to fulfill an agenda item on my bucket list, which was to see fields of lavender in full bloom, one of my favorite suitcases was stolen off a bus. Fortunately it had my husband’s clothing in it, not mine, or you would be reading a story about an international incident in the New York Times. But the point is, once we recovered from the outrage and insult we suffered at the hands of a thief and then a very blasé bus company, I began to see the event as a story with all sorts of possibilities. Spending our first hour and a half in Aix en Provence sitting in the police station in ninety-degree weather without air conditioning was indeed inspiring. Not being able to speak much more than high school French, I found myself conjuring reasons why people were gathered in the dirty, antiquated lobby. I had seen people greet one another before with the French kiss-kiss, one on each cheek, but the sight of French cops bidding hello and farewell in that manner fascinated me. I couldn’t tell whether the expressionless silent people gathered around us were victims or perpetrators, so I made stories up. Before you knew it, I knew exactly what happened to la valise volee, what the demise of the culprit would be in the short story I would write, and where the ending would take place.              We had arrived that morning at the airport in Marseille after a short flight from Dublin, a city that I found equally as inspiring. We had chosen to stay in Dublin for four nights on an extended overlay so we could build value into our airfare, which I had been unable to reduce to what I think of as a palatable price. The Hop On, Hop Off bus offered us a great way to see the city as many times as we wanted. We kept going by a vacant over grown lot near the Houston train station where one bus driver told us no one ever got on or off in his twenty-two years of experience. Immediately I knew there was a dead body in the lot. At least that there was a dead body in the lot in my mind.            Later, during the trip home when I encountered a young pale-faced Irish woman traveling to Boston with her two little waifs, I knew they had to be part of that story, which was why they had to leave Dublin. Was the body the abusive husband she had done in? Or had he been murdered by someone looking for something of value they thought the husband had and now figured it was with the widow? Another short story idea was born, even though I am challenged to write short fiction. I’m much better at being long-winded. I blame it on the Irish in me.                So maybe these ideas will end up in books if I can’t manage to fit them into short stories. Or maybe they’ll end up in my pillow as dreams. But wherever they go, I never would have had them if I hadn’t traveled. Does travel inspire you. dear readers? How, and please share photos.     

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The Softer Side of Matt Sinclair

 The lovely ladies of Miss Demeanors have asked me to talk a bit about my main character, Oakland PD Homicide Sergeant Matt Sinclair. I can tell you he’s the most tenacious (stubborn), confident (arrogant), and methodical (obstinate) detective in the department. He’s in his late thirties, six-feet tall, dark brown hair, slim, athletic build, and dark, piercing eyes. The media loves him because he tells it the way it is, and the department brass hates him for the same reason, although they reluctantly put up with him because he solves the city’s toughest cases, even though he often leaves a wake of destruction behind him. He’s always getting into shootouts, fistfights, and car chases, and continually being called into the police chief’s office. Oh, wait! You don’t want to hear about Matt’s crime-fighting skills, the guns he carries, or the fast cars he drives? You want to know about Matt’s love life, you say. Matt would rather take on a bank robbery in progress without back up than talk about his relationships. In this area, Matt’s still a work in progress. Red Line, the first book in the series, opens with Matt returning to Homicide after a six-month suspension for wrecking a city car when driving drunk. He’s divorced, getting accustomed to a new partner (a no-nonsense woman), trying to stay sober, and seeing Liz Schueller, a sexy, blonde TV reporter, who uses him as her source for the inside scoop on Oakland’s murders. In return, Matt gets celebrity exposure on the nightly news, as well as…other benefits. Talking about the other benefits—after Matt takes care of business at the first murder scene, he visits Liz’s apartment for a steamy sex scene—literally steamy because Matt joins Liz in the shower.    Although many male readers were disappointed to learn that Liz left Oakland for an anchor position in Chicago at the end of the first book. What’s not to love about a woman who worked her way through college as a lingerie model and enjoys sex, right guys? However, the more astute female readers recognized Liz was not good for Matt.   In Thrill Kill, the second book in the series, Matt’s partner, Cathy Braddock, uses a ruse to get Matt to the county hospital where ER nurse, Alyssa Morelli, is working. When Matt sees her, the tough detective’s knees nearly give out on him. Ten years earlier he and Alyssa went out a few times, but she dumped him, knowing the hard-drinking, hard-living, long-haired undercover narc that he was at the time, was not boyfriend material. Alyssa had married a doctor, but that didn’t work out when she realized making babies and living the country club lifestyle wasn’t for her, so she returns to the ER, where life had purpose. Once Cathy drags Matt away from Alyssa, she says, “Like the rest of the world, she knows about your divorce, you and Liz, and your pattern of one-night stands. Alyssa is all goodness, and that’s rare in people who deal with the same slime as we do on a daily basis. Don’t disrespect her by using your Sinclair charm on her while you’re dating other women. She’s not just another girl for you to screw and run away from when it gets too real.” Matt remembers following Alyssa, wearing short shorts, up a hiking trail ten years earlier and thinking that although she might be all goodness, as Braddock said, she was still damn sexy. They begin seeing each other, and although Matt makes the effort, Alyssa lets him know she doesn’t sleep with a man until the time is right. I love a happy ending in my books, one where the hero solves the murder, saves the world, and gets the girl in the end. After Matt ended up alone at the end of the first book, I really wanted him to end up with someone in this book. But sadly, Matt wasn’t ready for a nice girl like Alyssa yet. Alyssa returns in Shallow Grave, and Matt is a bit more emotionally mature (although he’s still got a long way to go). There are more murders, high-speed chases, gunfights, and a twisty mystery full of lies and secrets that pushes Matt in a dark abyss. He sinks even lower when the chief strips him of his badge and gun. I’d like to tell you that Alyssa is there for him, but that would spoil the ending. Shallow Grave will be released on July 11, 2017.  BRIAN THIEM is the author of RED LINE, THRILL KILL, and SHALLOW GRAVE. He retired as a Lieutenant from Oakland PD, after years as a homicide detective and homicide unit commander. He’s also an Iraqi War veteran and retired from the Army as a Lieutenant Colonel. He has an MFA in Creative Writing and lives in Hilton Head, SC. www.brianthiem.com   Michele Dorsey from Miss Demeanors:   I am a huge fan of Brian Thiem’s police procedural series and want Matt Sinclair to have a solid and happy relationship!  Do we have any advice to help  Matt Sinclair with his love life?

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Getting Unstuck

 Find me a writer who hasn’t gotten stuck and I’ll tell you, “That’s no writer.” For me the image of being stuck inevitably makes me think of Roald Dahl’s humorous (but dark) children’s book, “The Twits,” in which an awful sticky glue is first the nemesis but later the liberation of Mr. and Mrs. Twits’ victims.I asked my fellow Miss Demeanors, “What do you do to get unstuck? Do you believe in Writer’s Block? But even if you don’t, what tricks, methods, etc. do you use when the writing is just not happening? I’d love to hear if anyone has a lucky charm, pen, ritual?”  Tracee:I have issue with Writer’s Block being an excuse not to work. Like it’s an illness that you have to recover from. Certainly blocks happen. Maybe you don’t have the right ‘next step’ in your plot or you’ve uncovered a big hole or you simply have distractions that make it hard to focus while writing. Maybe taking a day off is the answer (especially if you’ve been on a hard work spree). But mostly it is about working through it. I rely on different tools – if you can call them that. Don’t ignore the impact of blood to the brain (quick jog, bit of yoga, trip to the gym). After a dose of oxygen to the brain…. maybe I need to just keep writing and worry about the details later, maybe I need to go back to the master chart and check the outline. If I’m really desperate I re-do my notecards and put them out and in order to take a look at flow differently (really to put the myriad details back in my mind). The basic thing is to keep working. Do something different to trigger the right next steps, but keep working. After all, you can’t edit a blank page!  Susan:      Usually when I get stuck it’s because of something relating to character. I don’t know why someone’s doing something. Or I don’t know what they should be doing. So when that happens, I begin doing dossiers. My office is filled with notebooks that are filled with questions: What type of coffee does she order at Starbucks? What did she wear to her prom? And so on. When all else fails, I watch House Hunters or walk in the woods.  Alexia:     When I experience writer’s block, I remind myself it’s just my anxiety and perfectionism kicking into overdrive and tormenting me with self-doubt. By focusing on what’s really going on–psychological hangup, not a lack of ideas–I can better deal with it/get past it. I remember a trick Chris Baty mentioned in No Plot, No Problem and envision myself banishing my inner editor. I mentally slam the door and lock inner editor out of the room. Or I imagine the self doubt as little demons and I exorcise them. “Back, back, back to hell,” I say. Sometimes I tell myself, “Just put some damn words on the page” and force myself to write something, anything as long as some words start flowing. Those words might (probably will) get deleted later but at least I’m producing words. I try not to get up from my chair because I’ll find an excuse not to sit back down and resume writing. Instead I close my eyes and so some deep breathing or send up a few prayers to the Holy Spirit. This quiets my mind and eases my anxiety.  Paula (Munier, our fearless agent and contributor): For me, writer’s block is usually a matter of my not knowing the characters well enough. Whenever I feel stuck, I just pull out my trusty Waterman pen and red leather journal and scribble around until something hits me. Or I just do research. The more research I do, the more I write.   Cate:      I write my way through writer’s block, putting sentences together that I’ll discard later until I get to a place where things make sense again. I also agree with Paula’s assessment that the source of writer’s block is a lack of understanding about the people and places that the story is about. When you know your characters and setting well enough, the book kind of writes itself. I recently threw out a 2/3 finished novel and started over because a lot of it was writing through my writer’s block. But doing that work and tossing it enabled me to understand the characters and what I wanted to say so that I could finish the resulting novel in six weeks. Robin:       My answer to the question: I have two strategies for getting unstuck. Which one I employ depends on whether it’s a first draft or whether I’m closer to submission. My first draft rule: keep going, no matter what. To echo Tracee, you can’t edit a blank page. The first draft is meant to be the burst that gets fixed in the next round(s). I do my best to muzzle my inner editor and spew out whatever it takes to move the scene on to the next one, no matter how ridiculous or lame it comes out. I liken it to a painting; no one but me ever sees the crappy pencil drawing beneath the colors and definition of the finished product so just go for it. Rule Two for later drafts: walk away for a while but take a notebook. I think everyone is familiar with the experience of the brilliant idea that comes to them while taking a shower, right? It happens because we’re not consciously trying. It’s the Zen moment that comes from quieting the mind. When I hit a roadblock I go for a walk, go for a bike ride, have dinner with friends, do some yard work, wash my car…any activity that takes me away from the computer screen and presses pause on the conscious effort. My friends and family have gotten used to me saying “OH!” out of nowhere then scribbling madly in a notebook. The only one who still gets surprised by the outburst is my dog if she’s on a walk with me. That “OH!” can sometimes be kind of loud 🙂    Michele:          My brilliant blog mates have offered such wonderful advice, I have little to add. For me, fresh air, is the antidote for a brain stall. A walk in the woods, along the ocean, or just sticking my head out a window and inhaling is a terrific way to jumpstart my brain when I’m stuck. Oddly enough, the other complimentary method is for me to pick up that pen that has stopped moving and just write. Write anything, including how frustrated you are that you can’t write. Before you know it, you’ll turn that writer’s breakdown into a breakthrough. 

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From Paradise to Eden (another tale of a tindominium)

 For the past month, I’ve been transitioning from living in Paradise to Eden. I know that’s doesn’t evoke a lot of sympathy, but it’s not all palm trees and ocean breezes. Living in a tiny cottage in St. John in the U.S. Virgin Islands half of the year and in a small tindominium on Outer Cape Cod the other six months does have its challenges, especially for this writer who needs a modicum of space and calm. People have remarked to me, “Oh, I watch Tiny House on HGTV. I’d love to do that.”But is tiny house living all it’s cracked up to be? Here’s the reveal: the good, the bad and the ugly about transitioning from the Caribbean cottage to the Outer Cape Cod tindo.            A confession. After six months of tropical temperatures, azure blue waters, and Tradewinds caressing my body, I actually looked forward to a few chilly New England days when I would slip into jeans and a sweater and warm my feet in my Ugg slippers. I imagined being perched on the comfy couch on gray rainy days with a real hardcover book on my lap.  St. John had begun to change from pleasantly warm to bloody hot and, not to sound ungrateful, I was done with it, at least until November.             Shortly after our return in May, we had three consecutive days of ninety-degree temperatures, followed by a never ending forecast of days filled with endless rain with temperatures in the fifties. My dream come true, to an extreme.            Sure, I got to curl up with books and to write prolifically in the dank darkness of the tindo, but when would I be able to plant my garden? Within days, the intimate coziness of our small living quarters began to feel confining. The clutter that comes with being stuck indoors for days on end mounted and spread like an amoeba throughout our tiny tindo. I realized tiny house living presupposes (at least for me) that a lot of time is spent living outdoors.             But there was the soothing rain on the roof, the birds from the Audubon sanctuary next door visiting our feeders not realizing there’s a boundary between the properties, and the pine trees whispering that we should just enjoy the respite from the heat and “be in the moment.”            We planted our garden during misty breaks from the downpours. The plants seemed happy and so were we. The cool quiet of our tiny gardens was a perfect place to germinate ideas for the stories I would later put to words.              A drive to the beach late each afternoon to watch the seals surfing in the Atlantic Ocean from inside our car while the rain pelted down reminded me that this was the same Atlantic Ocean I had soaked in daily while in St. John. The same ocean, but not the same. One smoky gray, swirling in random angry configurations, smashing against the white sand leaving a foamy froth along the edge. The other an illusive shade between green and blue, warm and smooth as silk, often as still as a mirror, but occasionally moody and agitated.            Internalizing the vastness of the ocean and the openness of the garden helped me understand that it’s not the size of the space I live in that matters, but rather the space inside of me. I can live anywhere as long as I remember to bring the outdoors in.   

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My Father's Secret

 While downsizing our home, my husband and I had to sort through some of the debris left by my parents, my grandmother, and Steve’s father. Much of it we had already disposed of, but we had left remnants we felt needed a little more consideration than “toss,” “save” or “donate.” My father’s Navy hat, my mother’s wedding dress, and other sentimental items had fallen under a fourth category: “defer.” So had boxes of photos and papers.            The time to face the “defer” pile came as the date when we were moving from the ten room home we had inhabited for 33 years loomed on the calendar just weeks away. I took a box at a time and sat at my dining room table sorting through like an archeologist sifting through the sands of time. My emotions ranged from amusement to melancholy to wonderment. I found myself uttering the words, “What were they thinking?” more than once. Why did they save some of this stuff? What had it meant to them?            I lifted a heavy opened envelope that was addressed in typewriting to my mother. I took the pages out and began to read a short story several pages long. It was the romantic tale about a young man and the woman he loved who returned home to her after World War II. It was well written, somewhat saccharine, and totally irrelevant to current times. It became clear to me that I was reading a story that had been written and proposed by my mother and rejected by a women’s magazine.            Wow. I never knew my mother had even an iota of interest in writing. Double wow. I wasn’t the only member in our family who had faced rejection. Damn, wouldn’t I have loved to chat with her over coffee or something stronger about our shared affliction, but she had been gone for decades.            I tried to understand why she had never told me that she had written a story, or maybe stories. My mother was a very private person, but she knew I was writing and I had shared some of my work with her and my father during visits with them. They lived next door, so sharing what I had cooked, read, or written was a common occurrence.            Something kept gnawing at me. I would pick up the hefty envelope that weighed heavy in my hand. Had I known so little about my own mother? Did she keep her creative dreams buried from a daughter who shared the same passion? I felt a tinge of anger and regret that we had lost the opportunity to connect on a level I wondered might have been an important opening.            Then the mystery reader and writer in me kicked in. My father had shared various stories he had written over the years. When “Agnes of God,” a movie about a novice who gave birth in a convent was released in 1985, he produce multiple chapters of a novel he had started years before, lamenting that “Someone got it done before I was finished.” Sure enough, he had written the beginning of the story about a troubled young novice who was forced to leave the convent.            He’d written all of his life professionally. His first job was as an English teacher. After the war, he worked in the television industry in marketing and promotion. I knew he had dabbled with writing fiction, but now I realized he had done more than that.            He had written a romantic story for a women’s magazine and submitted it under my mother’s name. My guess is he thought it had a better chance for publication if it came from a woman. I scratched my head at the notion that in the 1950’s some version of gender bias would work in the reverse in the publishing industry.            I thought about the few other things he had written and shared and realized the story was in his style. What dreams had my father buried in the name of being a responsible post-war provider for his family? Had writing been an illusive, impractical pursuit he dared not seriously indulge in?            When I had finished my first full-length novel in which I had murdered the board of selectmen in our hometown one by one after a torturous term on a local board, I shared it with my father. He trilled with delight after reading it, proud father kindly not noticing it may not have been very good. “I knew you had it in you,” he declared. “It’s in the genes.” I agreed with him, suggesting there was no irony his name was “Gene.”            Until I found that envelope, I never knew how seriously Gene wanted to be a writer. It was my father’s secret.

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A Writer's Field Trip

Let me take you on an Artist’s Date. What? You don’t know what an Artist’s Date is? It’s what I call a field trip for creative souls. Everyone is a creative soul. Some people just haven’t discovered it yet.              Julia Cameron, the author of The Artist’s Way and forty other books, is the Great Creativity Nurturer in my view. The Artist’s Date is designed as an excursion to fill the creative well. It can be an outing to an art gallery, a library, a yarn shop – any place that speaks to your creative spirit. Often color, scent, texture, and other sensual appeals are part of the destination. One of my favorite Artists Dates is to Jules Besch Stationers in Truro, Massachusetts, which is on Outer Cape Cod.            Meet Proprietor, Michael Tuck, a man with a passion for all things paper. He lovingly tends to the desires and needs of his devoted clientele and has created an environment perfect for an artist’s date            For a writer, there is eye candy everywhere. In addition to exquisite stationery, notecards, greeting cards for all occasions, there are displays throughout the shop nestled within nooks and crannies. Antique letter openers, ink wells, pens, and bookends so gorgeous, you might actually miss the array of gorgeous antique desks where Michael has tenderly arranged artifacts.              In the rear of the first floor, you will find notebooks and journals. There is at least one for every writer, whether you prefer lined or blank paper, leather bound, or the plebeian spiral like I do. I’m partial to a spiral bound notebook that has paper made of stone. It is so smooth, I’ve been heard asking other writers to “Feel my journal, please.” There are few circles where I can implore others to indulge in the love of paper and all things writing but here I browse with other members of my tribe.             Another room is filled with notecards for those of us who understand email has not replaced a handwritten expression of congratulations or sympathy. The selection ranges from tasteful and convention to humorous and a little outrageous. I recently sent a thank you note on a notecard with a tiny hydrangea on the front by Crane and got a thank you for my thank you.            Upstairs, you can roam through and touch sheets of elegant and joyful paper just waiting for you to find a purpose for. You may decide to wrap a gift, cover a book, or just display it above your desk to occasionally marvel at. There are party invitations and cocktail napkins with vintage photos. “My idea of a balanced diet is a drink in each hand,” boasts one woman from the fifties.            By the time you head to the cash register with your loot, your creative well will be overflowing. But the best is yet to come. The inevitable conversation with Michael tops it all, filled with folklore about Cape Cod and his adventures with paper and antiques. On a lucky day, you may find his beloved black lab there. You’ll probably not have noticed the quiet music playing in the background, but it’s there. Michael wraps your goods in lovely tissue, places them in a decorative bag, and then attaches a sprig of whatever is in season. I got a fragrant lily of the valley last week.              As you exit through a sun porch filled with African violets, antique photos, cloches, and sunshine, you feel your shoulders lighter and find a smile of your face. You’re ready to go back to work, even looking forward to it. Your Artist Date is a success.                 Where do you fill your creative well?(Jules Besch is located at 3 Great Hollow Road, Turo, Massachusetts.) 

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Besting Your Demons

 I invited the indefatigable Bruce Robert Coffin, author of Among the Shadows and Beneath the Depths coming out on August 8, 2017 to share his experience as a young writer with a creative demon. Creative demons are people who step on your creative dreams like bugs squashed under the heavy sole of a work boot. I love how Bruce is willing to share with writers and other artists how he reframed his experience and went on to write the successful Detective John Byron series (Harper Collins).  Bruce Robert Coffin here, delighted to be guest blogging on the Miss Demeanors website! Many thanks to Michele Dorsey and the rest of the gang for the invite.       I thought I’d ruminate a bit on overcoming ones creative demons. And when I say demons I mean of course those pesky things that stand in our way, blocking the path to creative nirvana like a Jersey barrier. The irony is, as write this I’m sitting at the airport waiting to learn my fate with at least a four hour flight delay due to: weather, construction at JFK, or the unspoken excuse of ‘we didn’t fill the plane so we’re combining flights so we don’t lose money’. Excuse the pun, but my money is on the latter reason. The whole point of my trip is to meet with my publishing team at HarperCollins.      But I digress. Back to my original point. Perhaps my most formidable creative demon, and one that comes up frequently during my author talks, appeared during my college days in the form of a creative writing professor. I had been awarded several scholarships for my writing ability and had dreams of becoming a published novelist. My writing professor was far less than nurturing and in no time I found myself floundering. The short story writing that had earned me As in high school now received only Ds. Discouragement was on the horizon. The message became clear. I couldn’t write. Ultimately, I made the tough decision to pursue an altogether different career path. I chose the field of law enforcement because my uncle was a police officer. I’d seen him in full regalia enough times to make a positive impression. In 1985 I was hired by the Portland police department. It was a career that I loved and stayed with for more than twenty-seven years. Oddly enough, in the spring of 2012 I found myself infected by the creative writing bug once more. It was as if the desire to write had never really left me. And this time I actually had something to write about. My nearly three decades as a cop left me with something to say. I often wonder, what if my college experience had been different? What I would have written about? I suppose I would have written about other people’s lives, as I hadn’t really done anything worth mentioning at the point in my young life. But now I have more than a lifetime’s worth of material from which to draw. My years as a police investigator have provided me with a veritable cornucopia of experiences that most writers would kill for, metaphorically speaking of course. Or maybe not… I like to joke that writing novels is cheaper than spending time on a therapist’s couch. Okay, so maybe I’m only half joking.        If there is a lesson to be learned here, I think it is don’t ever let anyone squash your dreams, whatever those dreams may be. In the five years since retiring from police work, my life has gone in a completely different direction than I could have ever imagined. My dream of becoming a published author has been realized. I have bested my creative demons, and if I can do it, so can you! Wait a minute. What’s that? They’ve started the boarding process for my plane! Ha! Another demon bested.Write on, McDuff! Is anyone else willing to share how you reframed an experience with a creative demon?

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The Unofficial Miss Demeanors Conference Packing List

The Unofficial Miss Demeanors Conference Packing List   The Miss Demeanors are off and running this week. Alexia (who is an nominee for an Agatha for Best First Novel), Tracee (who is a writing conference virgin), Paula, and I will be attending the Malice Domestic conference sponsored by Sisters in Crime. Poor Susan is traveling to England where she will be meeting her writing hero, Alison Weir. I asked each what they considered to be essential items to pack for a conference.             I’d say my list pretty much mirrors theirs, although Robin’s got an idea only a cyber expert would think of. I do pack a swimsuit because most hotels have a pool and for solitary writers who are spend lots of time alone, conferences can feel stressful, although fun. A quiet dip in a pool can revive me. And I confess that I bring a flask with some libation in it, cocktail napkins, and perhaps some nuts or crackers for the same reason. A quiet drink in your room alone or with just a few people can bring a little relief to the chaos of a conference. Never let it be said, I undermined the reputation of writers with a handy flask. Paula:I always take business cards, postcards featuring my books, copies of my books, my cell and my iPad and my chargers. I have a couple of trade paperbacks as well as e-books and manuscripts on my tablet so I’m never without good reading material. My conference wardrobe consists of four-season clothes only and a makeup bag that goes everywhere with me. I have been searching for the perfect leather backpack with a padded laptop pocket for years and if I find it, I’m buying it. I have several that turned out not to be perfect, and so the search goes on…. Alexia: I haven’t been traveling to conferences for long, only about a year. I pack for conferences, clothes-wise, the same as I pack for any other trip: travel-friendly separates that fold up small, resist wrinkles, can be washed, and fit into a carry-on. Traveling solo taught me not to pack more than I can carry. I usually pack a duffel bag and tote because I hate checking luggage.  However, I’ve started using my hard-sided wheeled 21″ case as a checked bag so I have a way to carry books home post-conference. I also bring business cards and postcards/bookmarks, pens to give away, pens to write with, notebooks to write in, a paperback book to read, a 7 inch tablet, my phone, chargers, a battery pack, and both a 3 foot and a 6 foot charger cord. I only rarely take my laptop–the tablet is smaller, lighter, and more TSA-friendly  (not every airport offers TSA Precheck). Other than a tiny bottle of hand lotion, chapstick, and hand sanitizer which I use in transit, and sample sizes of my face creams, I don’t pack toiletries because I can buy them when I get where I’m going. The only truly “can’t live without” items are my phone, which can do everything a laptop and tablet can do (tiny screen and keyboard get tedious, though), the charger and the 6 foot cord (outlets are never in convenient places), and pen and paper. And credit/debit cards. Tracee:This will be my first conference as a published author so I’m sure the list will change from here on out. At previous conferences I’ve made sure I have business cards and notebook/pens. Going forward, I’m adding book swag (postcards or bookmarks, etc.) and a copy of my book (for the table during a panel). Of course, there is the other general travel stuff – I love itineraries! The thing I really wouldn’t want to be without is my current book (even though technically I should be able to get one there….). I also never travel without Benadryl as a sleeping aid (I mean allergy relief) in case a hotel doesn’t quite agree with me or I’m on a different time zone. I’m looking forward to reading your lists. This may prevent me from forgetting the very thing I couldn’t do without.  Susan:I always bring bookmarks. Since my Maggie Doves are digital, I always have some sort of gift coupon so people can download it. Of course, I’m always reading a book, and it becomes a nice memory that I associate with the conference. For example, I was reading a book about Patty Hearst at the Writers Police Academy and those two things are linked in my brain. Robin:I pack business cards, a notebook, pens, my laptop, Kindle and chargers for all electronics. I get paranoid about backups of WIPs so I usually carry at least one USB thumb drive. Something I bring that I’m betting is unique is a spare webcam cover that I stick over hotel door peepholes. Reverse viewers are much too easy to buy or make as the world found out during the Erin Andrews privacy trial. Until I have a debut ready to hawk, I suspect I can make a memorable impression by giving away webcam covers featuring our Miss Demeanors logo. I’m ordering enough for all of us to have a supply to give away 🙂 Cate:When I go to conferences, I bring business cards and my Kindle-equipped phone for all the books that I hear about and need to start reading immediately. I also bring my computer. Whenever I can find a moment, I write. Sometimes, even when I should be marketing, I’m in my room writing. It’s quiet time with just me in a hotel. Who can pass up such a nice chance to get real work done?

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Where Do You Get Ideas?

  Where do you get your ideas? This is one of the most frequent questions I am asked as an author. I know from the multiple author events I have attended I am not alone. I sometimes feel like my brain is so clogged with ideas I don’t know how to pull them out one at a time. Or worse, that time will run out before I’ve been able to do them all justice.          Without scaring you into thinking this is going to be a Buddhist moment or one which you need to be sitting on a map to hear, I want to make a writer’s pitch for being in the present moment. We miss so much of what is going on around us while we are staring at a tiny screen that removes us from our surroundings. I am guilty of this, so I am not preaching. During our winter stay in St. John in the U.S. Virgin Islands, my husband will be driving us on a road that essentially runs through a rain forest filled with natural wonders. There are clouds above so billowy you want to plop them onto a cup of hot chocolate. Enormous cows will stand in the middle of the road and stop traffic. Donkeys climb the hills without effort, not too shy to come to your car window to check if you have snacks for them. And I’m looking at my phone. Really? Yes, really, although I’m working on it.            I do make a conscious effort to be in my surroundings. Yesterday I traveled from St. John to Bethesda, Maryland where I will be attending the Malice Domestic Conference held by Sisters in Crime. I took a car ferry to St. Thomas, a plane to San Juan and then Washington, D.C. and finally a shuttle to my hotel. Where do I get my ideas?  I watched the various cars back onto the ferry. I wondered where everyone was going. I looked at the guys driving Mac trucks in reverse up close to other trucks. I pondered whether the person driving the DHL van liked that he had to drive over water to do his route. I watched the staff of the ferry meet and greet passengers, coaching them to get just a little closer to the car next to them, sometimes with tender patience, other times barking. All of the people on this ferry have stories. I may not know what they are, but if I take the time to watch and listen to them, I start to get “ideas.”            At the airport, I sat next to a middle-aged multi-cultural couple with a son around four. I wondered where did the couple meet? Would they have just this one child? (You can wonder about questions you might not feel comfortable asking, but go ahead and think about them. It primes the story pump.) I was amazed by the prowess of the child on a Kid Kindle playing some game, while his dad struggled next to him on his own device, trying to keep up with the same. When the father said with delight, “Yes, I found it,” and the son said, “Good job, Dad,” I smiled. What would this child be like as a teenager? How would the father cope when he’s already behind? The mother looked on patiently at the two, but also at her phone. What is this little family’s story? It’s as if someone handed me a page out of a coloring book with the family’s portrait drawn, ready for me to color in with my version of their story.            Where do I get ideas? Waiting rooms, any form of public transportation, at the grocery store. Any place that there is a line of people waiting. Even better if they are waiting for their government to service them, like at a motor vehicle department. Courtrooms.             Get outdoors to find ideas. When I find a gecko on the windshield after leaving a beach in St. John, I worry I’ve taken him away from his family on Francis Bay and that he will have to find a new life over on Coral Bay. I’ve thought about writing a child’s book “Do You Know the Way to Francis Bay” starring Larry, the Lizard for years. And what about that cow sitting in the middle of the road? Who owns her and why? Does she enjoy the attention she gets or is she just having a bad day and taking it out on tourists trying to get to the beach?            Remember what your parents told you to do before you crossed a street? Stop. Look. Listen. If you stop and ask, “What’s the story?” with whatever you are observing, you may be flooded with ideas. Go ahead and pick one or more. And write that story.               

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